South Bay

i m back in the south Bay area so i may have more time to hang with some of you. Not sure yt. as for now i am falling asleep.

RareRantOnSomeone

hi
I have MUCH to tell you
i may just blog it and make you all read it
[Friend A]
9:44pm
Oh dear
[Me, Miki]
9:45pm
Samie and i just lost a friend in a motercycle accident yesterday
[Friend A]
9:48pm
Major ouch. I lost an uncle that way...
[Me, Miki]
9:49pm
my aunt D now has breast cancer
just found out that other night
you were there
so a bad week
i am still homeless
[Friend A]
9:49pm
Do they know if it's malignant yet?
[Me, Miki]
9:49pm
and i am now really confused by Friend B who got my hopes up real high then crashed them all to pieces
no idea yet
[Friend A]
9:52pm
Friend B changes his mind a LOT
[Me, Miki]
9:54pm
His assistant YELLED at me for absolutely NO reason. I DID NOT tell him what to do. I was trying to work WITH him as a team player!! I only wanted to get shit done as Friend B needed and that ass hole Dude 1 yelled at me while i was driving him somewhere!
if i have one rule it is to Never ever abuse me!!!
at least not while i am fucking driving
or doing someone a favor
all i aver wanted to do was help Friend B. It was Friend B's idea to make a job out of it. HIS idea to hire me! He told me i should come to him. HE said i needed better friends i can rely on. I still trust him in many ways but he cannot pick friends or girlfriends well at all
I WAS actually cleaning. i really and truley had done quite a bit of it.
and Dude 1 said he would have the kitchen done by the tiem i got back from my errand. It wasnt
[Friend A]
9:59pm
Oy
[Me, Miki]
10:00pm
when i got back Friend B said he needed the place clean by 4pm. I know i could do that but then Dude 1 said I absolutly HAD to give him a ride to Fremont in Friend B's car for an errand right then and there no questions
he said I mUST
so i grabed the keys and asked if Friend B asked him to
he said HE was the assistant to Friend B and i was jsut a helper so it was time to go
so down the road we go adn he lightes up a cig
I say, "I am of the understanding that Friend B wanted to keep this car free of smoke. Is that still one of his rules?"
and then he just YELLLLED at me!!!!!
so i pulled over and told him i will go no further till he stops yelling.
he gets out and storms off telling me to leav him there
so i did and went back to Friend B, trying real realy realy hard to not get emotional so as not to cause anymore drama as Friend B keeps telling me he cant handle
but i end up in tear and he tells me to get out of his house. this is after last night he offered me to stay until the first and work for him. This is is after i agreed to help him however i can in return for his kindness
i cried and left
then texted you that i was on my way to your house
then got distracted by my phone bill
so i got a cheaper phone so as not to have a prob calling anyone anymore
and then i got the bad news about my friend's death

usually when things get this bad i count my blessings and usually i get like 30 right off the bat. Today i came up with 6 and they didnt sound so good today
a difficult day

Every day for me is so epically and drastically different there is no possible way to keep sending all of you up dates which is why I blog this way. To let you know whats going on. And even still, I am sure i couldn’t possibly leave every one individual a personalized description of what happened. Knowing the way I talk, I am sure you would all get diff pics of how my life is going right now since I am only able to show a few sides to me at once.

shorter version of my story-part 1

Even more condensed story of my injuries

my husband dumped me 6 months ago, i became homeless again, i found 3 months happines with a new brother from India who was kind to me then went back to the other side of the world so now i miss him. I had 4 nice jobs that i loved but never paid much then i Lost them one by one as my head began to migraine on me constantly right around when my ex husband now wormed back into my life and caused mroe misery and stress

and on toppa all that my boyfriend of the last six months dumped me which added more stress then i lost my last job and i became homelss again. At this point the stress was unberable and my head hurt like more than ablosute HELL add the straw that my big sis yelled at me that night Bruce broke up with me and i became homeless and i ended up in the ER with a brused blood vessel and this is

ALL while still healing from a dance injury which left my left leg in even more pain. torn ligament in my knee and a sprained ankle

and that is not even all of it but there are some cliff notes for you. Most All of this happened in the last month to month and a half or so

any ONE just ONE of those issues would unhinge or unsettle most people. I dealt with all 16 major life stresses when i counted with my shrink b4 i collapsed in the ER

since then my brused brain has healed some, no more black outs. less dizzy. still the migrains come and go. for three whole weeks that pain was Constant even with medication.


you think that is enough to turn a self confident and capable strong woman into a lonley inseure one? I am lonely and homeless and it is too cold to be nude while in my car so i dont sleep much.