Unhappy and Tired

I know I haven't blogged in a while. I just haven't been feeling well. I have been trying to work and find a new job and haven't been very successful with much. Hubby has been mad at me for a while and I just need to focus on work and making money. He would rather I focus on my health and what I eat. I could care less what I eat as long as it is food and cheap. He doesn't like that very much. I don't like making him angry but I am unhappy with the way things are going and would like to just do things my way. Things are just not going my way at all and every time I try to make anything really happen my way he gets mad at me. Well that may not be entirely true, I am sure there are reasons why my way isn't so good but I think I should at least have control over what I eat or whether or not I go walking. I hate walking. I would rather go dancing for my exercise. I can't just do everything perfectly and I am not going to let him dictate to me everything for fear of him being mad at me.

I should make a list of all that makes me happy or smile. Dancing, watching ice skating, singing well, ice cream, hamburgers, Hubby not mad at me, having a job with enough hours, not being in pain…

I guess I am coming up with at short list this time. I'll have to come up with more later.