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I am both very very happy and a little sad. I am ecstatic that I went to Baycon this weekend but sad that our cat Feisty died on Monday. I had a great time at Baycon and that upset my Hubby. He wanted me to comfort him and instead I went to Baycon this weekend. I had no idea the cat was that close to dying. He got really mad at me and we almost split up this weekend. It was very stressful at the same time while I was having fun at the Con. I guess I am just not the best person to comfort others or something. I do my best but I end up letting people down. A lot of hurtful things were said back and forth between Hubby and I. I ended up moving back in to Hubby’s house but for how long I don’t know. The two of us are supposed to move to Las Vegas together because it is cheaper to live there.

The problem is we need a loan to get there and no one is giving out loans right now. We need about $10,000 or so, so we can move and have rent covered for a while so I can have time to get a job. I already have an account with Virgin Money so all I need is someone out there who wants to make 10% or so on their money by lending it to us. You people don’t even have to use your own money if you don’t want to. You can take the money form a credit card or something. I know there are some of you out there who still have good credit. Why not make the money and credit work for you and make you money? I even have good plans on how I am to pay back that loan. It can be a short term loan if you want just let me borrow it. Great, now I am starting to sound desperate. If you want you can ignore the desperate sounding part.

There are so many other things I want to blog about but they are so personal that I just can’t risk the whole world knowing about everything. I was told that some things should not be blogged about. You know how we have some chapters in our lives that we go through and then they are over? I sometimes want to go back to the beginning of some of those chapters and jump ahead to others. What bothers me a bit about myself is that if I had to do it all over again, I would still have gone to Baycon. I won’t give up that experience for anything. It was too wonderful. I am just sorry that it had to put such a black mark on my relationship with Hubby. Shit happens and now it is time for us to move on with life together. I wish I knew exactly what I wanted and once I do know what I want I wish to have the courage to carry out what I want or need.