Breakfast Burritoes

Most of my life I have hated cooking and told everyone that I suck at it. Well with some encouragement from my hubby I have started to make him Vegetarian spaghetti and blueberry pancakes over the years of our marriage. He says I make perfect spaghetti and perfect pancakes and is always so happy when I make some for him or us. Well I still hate cooking at still tell everyone I suck at cooking but within the last month I have attempted to make some things I never have before. I really had no idea what I was doing but I wanted to prove that I truly suck at cooking. I started to make breakfast burritos within that last two weeks. At first I used the frozen hash browns from the store but then last night I actually skinned and chopped up a bunch of red potatoes for me to cook this morning. I also made scrambled eggs with cheese to put in the burritos. As hard as I tried to screw it up to prove I had no skill in the kitchen the damn things turned out perfect and tasted really good. I have no idea how. I know this will sound really uh conceded of me or something but I sometimes really with that I wasn’t automatically good at everything I try. It all just comes out good naturally. Well I know I am not good at everything in the world but I don’t really truly suck at anything either. The problem is that this way I have no real good excuse not to do something. I end up having to do all this shit anyway because I can and because I can then it is expected of me. I only wish I was exceptionally spectacular at a few things so I could use that and make a bunch of money from it all. But nooooo, I have to be just relatively good at too many things so I have really nothing incredible to market to people about myself. I don’t know how to apply all my skills and talents so I have no idea how to use them to make me money. It would be nice if someone who knows me really well and that I trust would just start telling me what to do so I can do it and have that make me the money I need to survive. So far in reading this blog it sounds like I am complaining about something I should not be complaining about I am only hoping someone else out there understands what I mean by all this. I do not mean to sound conceded or to brag about myself I just wanted to say that sometimes it really sucks to not have much of a direction. In college I was interested in every subject so I wanted to take every class. I couldn’t pick just one field of study so because I picked them all I got a general Liberal Arts degree. I may have taken more classes than most people but no one really respects the Liberal Arts unless that is what they have too. So what direction am I supposed to go when my interests and abilities are pulling me in all directions at once? How do I get out of this funk so I can start truly supporting myself?

I had a pre interview today. My mom was going to a job fair for an apartment manager position and I asked if I could go too. We both made a great impression and did an excellent job with the pre interview. We were told to wait for an email that would show up on Monday if they are interested in us. So now I just wait and pray that I get the interview then wait and pray some more that I get the job. Wish me luck, cross your fingers and pray for me to get the job. The way things are going I need all the help I can get.