Naughty and Stupid Sometimes

Well, let me tell you what has been up with me lately. My best friend came to visit from Tennessee and we got a chance to hang out and catch up again. We went out to Karaoke like we used to and had a great time. I also got a chance to catch up with another friend I haven't seen for a long time. That was great.

Since then I have been really nothing but sick without really getting better. I got on kind of sick and then another. I went to Lupie for Naughty Nightie Night and had a blast. I put on my purple fishnet body sock and danced until after I dropped. I completely over did it and got the flu. Well, it was stormy that night and we did stay in a cold Yurt. So I've been sick since then. The cool thing is I got a chance to pole dance for the first time ever and somehow for some reason I won second place! I won a free dinner but traded it for one of those feather black scarf things the other winners got. I thought it a much cooler prize for dancing my ass off. I had fun. Hubby said I sweat off at least 5 pounds that night. I screwed up during my second pole dance but oh well shit happens and nobody's perfect.

As if I didn't have enough torcher I was stupid enough to go up there again this week even though I'm still not feeling well cause I wanted to see what the burner thing was all about. It was a special burner weekend up there. I got to play and sing some music with an old friend and I saw real fire dancers. It was awesome! Some of them were real good at it. The stars were out shining so bright it was such a beautiful night but we left early because hubby was cold, had a headache and said it was the best thing to do.

Since I've been sick, I haven't had much time or energy for that matter to do anything so needless to say but, I have mostly been doing nothing or being stupid when I have done something. No work got done (not like my boss has given me any hours anyway), no blogging got done, no maintenance of anything. I do feel bad about that and hubby said I am lazy. He is probably right, however, I am doing what I can.

I am really upset with my boss for only scheduling me for two days this month. I must work full time to even hope to stay alive but I only get two days! WHAT THE HELL MAN!!!! Two days in one month when I was hired on as a full time employee? This is just not right. I am getting pretty much no money at all in a whole month and a half because of this. I have been looking for another job but they are all drying up quick. I cannot survive like this and everything is falling apart. I need a better job and fast. I have so many skills to offer, the trick is convincing someone else of that when they all look at me and see a 24 year old. Automatically employers assume from my age that I will be lazy, stupid, require and had to hold, will be immature, and unprofessional.

I'll have you all know people but I take whatever job I have very seriously and want nothing but to do a good job at anything set before me with style, grace, poise, professionalism, and sometimes a bit of humor. I care about my workplace, I really do so why is it so difficult to explain this on a resume? All I need is one phone call for an interview and I can show anyone that I have what it takes to do the job no matter what pre-judgments they wish to place on me.

Even if people think they can have me all figured out by reading my blog that is so far from the truth. What I write here is nothing more than snapshots into my life. You can't know a person or even see their life story from snapshots laid out before you. I do hope to write a book someday but to really get to know me or anyone would take a lifetime. People are both simple and complicated; I go both ways when the situation calls for it. There are so many different sides to me, true, and you may not like all of them, yes, but even though the whole package is me, when I am at work I am in job mode. When I am at the gym, I am in work out mode. I know when and where it is appropriate for what part of me to come out. So I wonder why people think it is ok to judge people out of context. We have fired teachers for going to parties and fired cops, fire people, nurses, and doctors just for a few pictures that somehow made it onto the internet with or without their consent.

Does it really matter what they do outside of work as long as they do a good job while there? As long as all is kept separate or in their place does it really matter if people have a life outside of how they get their paycheck? Simply put, NO!!! No, it really doesn't matter or make any difference or affect job performance to have a life. If anything getting a life outside of work would only make the person happier and we all know that happy people make better employees. And for the record, I do not think it was at all right to bring up impeachment for what Pres. Clinton did. Most men, especially those in power or with money cheat on their wives, and I do mean MOST of them in one way or another. What people must get through their heads is that they should all stop being jealous and nosey. Jealousy is a useless emotion that does nothing to help us and it wasn't our business what Bill did after hours. It honestly didn't hurt any of us one bit. What hurt was all the stupid unnecessary ruckus big deal everyone made out of it all. Hello people! Wake up and get a brain please! We are devolving with all this crap we are doing to ourselves.