Working Out - Sort Of

I have reached the two week mark for the excersizing and I must admit that I have cheated witht he whole diet thing a bit. Somehow in spite of my cheating I have noticed a few differences in my body. My back is flatter and I feel stronger. However, my time of the month started a couple of days ago and I have been beat during that time. Hubby said it is natural for me to be more worn out while on my time of the month. I skipped a day or so with the hiking and still have not been swimming as much as I should. I feel guilty about that. I am also begining to feel depressed about stuff again. I am not all together sure why. Things are just the same amount of shitty as always. Nothing has changed so why should my mood shift so suddenly to aweful? Maybe the not changing part is what is getting me down. Our problems are not going anywhere.

So last week all together we hiked close to 30 miles with various different difficulties up hill and down hill. I usually feel a sense of accomplishment after a hike but I am just not feeling myself lately.

On other subjects my relationship with hubby is still very well as usuall. Easter was fine. We went to both families as usual. The brunch with his family was I think more fun and the dinner with my family was at least less annoying than usual. Their were no religious debates this time wich was nice. I have more and more ideas af how to make money with no idea how to start them do to lack of funds. Sometimes I wish my creativity were better linked with making money from the very begining and not the whole big picture of a thought. I am still looking for a better job than the two I have now because none of them are giving me any hours for some reason. Maybe I’ll become a secretary or something. I just hope they have a spell check with their program because I no longer have Microsoft Word since the trial ended so now I am using Word Pad with none of the goddies I have been spoild with on the other program.

I hope all of your lives are going better than mine. At least I am getting fit, sort of.